Hello Everyone. As you all can guess, my sun sign is Cancer. My Venus is in Taurus and my Mars is in Virgo.
I am having feelings for someone I have known for the last one year through a mutual friend of mine.
We would chat online sometimes (maybe after a month or two, he would knock or I would knock). Just two weeks back, we were chatting online when suddenly we were becoming WAY too flirty with each other - apparently that led to a misunderstanding and it was getting pretty serious when he asked me for my number to clear it up.
He called me instantly and we continued the argument for like an hour or so. Later everything got okay and he suggested that maybe we should try to be better friends and get to know each other more.
Since that day, we have been communicating over online or text or the phone frequently. If not everyday, then at least after every 2/3 days. Being a cancer, that KILLS me! I suddenly feel SO drawn to him that I feel like talking to him every single day! (But well, that doesn't happen and I find myself waiting and waiting for the time when we will talk again). I know Cancer girls are very clingy and I try SO HARD to not be clingy.
Sometimes he acts a little detached. Sometimes he is friendly. Sometimes he is careless. Sometimes he is caring.
But we tease each other in a friendly and funny way often. We would flirt too at times. But not too much.
I just feel so happy when I am around him. With my emotional side always kicking in, he shows me the practical side of my dreams and somehow I feel inspired.
Problem is . . . he told me once that he is not interested in getting into any serious relationship in the next few years. Plus, we are just friends. The more I am getting to know him, a closer friend I am becoming to him (he told me that). And I know, probably I am stuck in the friendzone already.
We admitted to each other how we like each other's company. I just LOVE talking to him. And I am sure he likes talking to me too.
To my horror, in front of him I find myself opening up big time. I don't open up that easy. I found myself sharing some dreams of mine with him which I shared with no other friend. But often I feel like he is not opening up. Being a cancer, it is hard for me to open up too, but with him, it's like I REALLY want to open up, but I cannot cause he might not reciprocate. Then again, I have started to show some of my emotions (and I regret doing that - cause I am feeling what if it scared him off?)
What do I do? My feelings are growing every single day. I want more from him. But I cannot ask for it. I really want to take this to a next level (I know it has ONLY been two weeks and I sound like I am rushing too early). Sometimes I feel like I should just confess about my feelings, but that will not be a good idea. If I see he doesn't feel the same, it will apparently shatter me. Any suggestions?
You might tell me to wait. And yes, I am ready to wait. What bothers me is during this time period, he might have flings and who knows? He might serious with somebody else. I don't know . . . I am just . . . lovestruck.
His sun sign is Virgo. His Venus is in Libra. And his Mars is in Cancer.